Exhausted

I feel like I have been working non-stop for 4 days straight. I have been busy going all over the place and staying up late. I just want to quit... but I can't lose hope. I have to keep going.

I'm starting to feel ill because of my lack of sleep or is it too much stress? I have been eating a little more... so I have some energy.

I think it's time to sleep... today will be another long day.

-Glad

Cuddly

Luckily Serenity doesn't do what's on the image above. She usually just lays on the cat perch that's by the window. She has been cuddling with me every night ever since Saturday. It's nice to be able to hug her as I fall asleep. I'm pretty sure she can sense how I'm feeling and for that I'm glad I have her.

But I still miss my Dave... and I want many cuddles and kisses.

-Glad

Friends

I keep getting lost in my thoughts. Thinking of what I should do or what's going to happen. All of it gets me emotional. I'm alone with my thoughts... and it's annoying. No one else is feeling what I'm feeling...

At this time I don't want to be alone, so I'm trying to hang out with friends to talk and do things. By doing this I force myself to not think about what is really going on in my life. I haven't been eating as much as I usually do, but being with my friends has actually forced me to eat at least something.

I hung out with Clifford on Sunday. He's one of my best friends. I went over to his house because I needed to have company and to my surprised he was sick. Luckily I'm not feeling ill now, so I didn't catch anything. But anyways, I talked to him about things... and at least I had someone to talk to, to give me some advice or things I should think about. But just having the company was good enough. His mom made dinner and I hadn't eaten anything that day, so I ate the chicken and rice. We started to watch V for Vendetta, but towards the middle of the movie, Cliff decided that he wanted to make a bond fire in his backyard. We had enough wood to make it last for approximately 2 hours. It was nice to sit there, talk and just keep warm with the fire. His dog Moon also joined us which made it fun. I was at Cliff's house until midnight. I didn't want to go home, but I wanted to sleep in my warm bed. So I went home and just cuddled with my cat Serenity. 

Here is a vid of Sunday.

Monday I went to hang out with Renee and Bailey. We talked for a while and then had lunch. I hadn't eaten again up until 2pm when I ate with them two. After lunch I left. I went to toymandala to see if my friend Dustin was working and he was. So I hung out for about 45 mins at the store. I didn't get home until around 6pm. I relaxed a bit at home doing some paperwork... and at 7pm I left to the Kabbalah Centre. I filled up my cars gas tank... tomorrow will require a lot of driving back and forth. At least I will be with my friend Carlos for a bit of the back and forth driving session. 

That's it for now...

-Glad

Lost

I woke up today... still in an okay state. Today I had planned to go biking before I did anything else. I had yogurt before I left and off I went. I had only planned to bike for 30 minutes. But for some reason I calculated my timing or minutes wrong and I ended up biking for almost an hour. I felt good being out there. Not a thing could bring me down. That's what I thought... but it's not what happened when I got home and after I took a nice shower. I really was not prepared... 

I don't know anymore. I'm confused. I'm worried and I can't say anything about it. Even if I have anything to say... it never matters. My opinions or thoughts don't count at all. 

-Glad

Busy Friday

I have been working on a little test for a company who does youtube vids. I finally sent it off to them so they can review my shot. It was really fun working on this little project.  I hope I hear back from them soon with good news... we shall see. Today when I woke I thought I heard my dad come inside the house, I heard noise in the living room, so I thought it was him. But to my surprise it was my cousin! Haha. I knew he was going to show up today, but not so early! Shortly after that,  I went out for a short bike ride. I also went out to put my netflix in the mailbox. Can't wait to get the next DVD in the mail. 

These past few days I have been trying to make more room in my room. Getting rid of stuff... trying to move things around, etc. So I started with my closet... looking for clothes I don't wear often, putting hooks on the side of my closet for all my bags. The hooks started to make my closet more neat. But what I need is a new dresser which I went and got today from Ikea. I don't have much space in my room for a dresser but I measured my closet and found a dresser that would fit perfect in my closet. I went my my mom and cousin to Ikea. He helped carry boxes to the cart and to the car. I was so glad the boxes we got where a small size, so they fit inside my car perfectly. I got a 3 drawer dresser, in black brown color, I think. Haha. I also got two Laiva bookcases, $25 dollars each. These bookcases will go in my room in Beaumont where I will be able to place books or other stuff. I was also able to enjoy a frozen yogurt from Ikea for a dollar. I have been wanting to get one for the past 5 times I been there. So finally it was time, and it was yummy! We got home and I started to put the dresser together. It was very similar to the one David got about a week ago from Ikea and I also helped him put it together.  So when I got everything out from the cardboard box I knew I would be able to finish in a short amount of time. It was pretty simple to get to the final product. I did notice that the dresser was a bit smaller than the plastic drawers I had in my closet. So I decided to get rid of clothing that I don't use anymore. But some where clothing that I just didn't want to get rid off... but I made myself get rid of it. I just have to much clothing... sometimes I don't know what to do with them. In the end I think I got rid of about 20 articles of clothing. I'm still planning to through the other clothing that's not in my closet... and see what else I get rid of. Yeah.... too much ropa (clothing.) 

Aside from that, I have been watching the all day marathon of Merlin. The new season starts tonight at 10pm. I have already seen the new season online in some website... hehe. I got ahead of a lot of people. I couldn't help myself. The series is just so good... and I can't wait for the 5th season. I think this is one of the few show that I have followed and wait anxiously for a new season. But now I can't wait to watch the whole 4th season on Syfy.

Okay... I'm resting from so much hard work in fixing my room... but I still don't want to stop. I want to keep going... but... I am tired. Haha. Also, I'm waiting for Dave to call me to see what is up! Waiting, waiting... it seems it's what I do best. Tomorrow is also Renee's little party thing at Howl at the Moon. I'm going to go... and have some fun with friends! Yay!

Okay... that's all.

-Glad

Biking... again?

I haven't been biking for about 2-3 months, I think. Too much going on in my head to make me care about going out to exercise. Mostly because I haven't been in the mood, or just plain depressed about life. Most parts of my life are going well, but other parts are just blah.

But finally today I went out for a short bike ride, for a start. It was about 30 mins I would say. I really didn't want to go. I was in no mood to even want to get out of bed but I forced myself to get up. I kept going back and forth about going out biking. It just feels like a waste of time. Even if I do this, it's not going to get me faster to where I want to be in life.

This is how it went down. I got ready, "I don't want to go." I ate a short breakfast, "I don't want to go." I got all my stuff and went out to get my bike, "I don't want to go." I filled up my water bottle, "I don't want to go." I took my bike out of the garage, "I don't want to go." I went back into the house to get my knee brace because I forgot to put it on, "I could just sit here and not go." Left the house and went to the backyard to get my bike, "Blaah, blaah." Got my bike, put on my helmet and gloves, "This is annoying. I hate this." Got on my bike and sat on it for 20 seconds until I finally went riding. I realize my opponent (myself) was beating on me the whole time and trying to make me not to go. I"m glad I didn't listen and just went with what I know I should be doing.

It's hard trying to do the right things for yourself.  Most of the time you should just go with what your instincts tell you to do and just do it. But right now I'm going to start off slow. Going out biking for 30 mins... until I'm back to an hour plus like I used to. Slowly get my self into the rhythm I was in. I don't want to just jump in immediately... I feel that would not be a good thing for myself. I think I need to take my time, so I can on my own feel the want for it. Right now I still don't feel it, but when I was out there riding, I felt it.

-Glad

Something I want to complain about...

I'm sick and tired of seeing on Facebook people saying they are starting a cleanse for weight loss, or going on a diet. What is up with that? There is no cleanse or dieting of any kind. If you want to lose weight, then eat right. Eat small portions of food. Eat healthy (fruits, veggies, etc.) stuff of course. Snack throughout the day. You also exercise... and you don't even have to do it everyday... I say at least 4 times a week is good enough for about an hour. If you go out, you don't have to eat all of the food that is brought to you, you can take leftovers home and eat it at a later time. If you feel guilty about eating something or eating so much... then STOP.  You should never feel guilty about what you eat, unless you are eating wrong. It's also not a bad thing to indulge yourself in foods you love once in a while, but you don't do it every single day. Take responsibility for what you do.

I have to say, people who think they have to do a cleanse or diet is dumb. There is no cleanse or dieting of any sort. All you are really doing is changing the way you eat. It's all in the mind. You change your habits to good habits and then you will be on your way to loosing weight. You just have to manage what you eat. Then it all becomes normal and you keep at it. You don't stop once you get to where you want to be, you continue to maintain it.

THAT IS ALL!!!

Glad out.

Start of the Gregorian New Year 2012

It's a new year... new things I suppose. I also wanted to say that I read 24 books last year. Let's see if I can break my record this year! What I also like about starting a new year, is placing new calendars on my wall. For 2011 I had a tiger calendar. My favorite wild cat. This year I put a My Little Pony calendar. Hehe.

I spent new years eve with David at Flappers. For me to be doing anything on New Years... is like a miracle. I can't think of a time when I have done something. So it was nice actually being somewhere. Being at Flappers was okay, but I was still happy because I was with my boy for the first time to celebrate new years. This was the first time... at least I will be able to have memories for this new years. Hopefully it's not the last.

David and I watched "The Muppets" yesterday. I came up with the idea of walking to the Americana in Glendale. It wasn't too far. It took us about 20-25 minutes. It felt good walking there. But aside from that, the movie was awesome. David has been wanting to watch it, but in fact I wasn't. Even though I felt that way, inside I was still curious to watch the movie because I did grow up watching the Muppets. So glad I did watch the movie. YAY! After the movie we went to Granville Cafe and had dinner. After that we walked back t his apartment where I spent the night again. Hmmm, now that I think about it... I think it was the 5th night in a row... haha.

******

Here wishing that all goes well this year.

Hanukkah gifts

I wanted to spend a little time with the gifts I have gotten so far.

From my aunt and uncle I got a new coat, legwarmers, a red wallet, a snoopy DVD, Ponies and some moneys =P

Aiza also got me some gifts. 5 different nail art pens, 2 pocket size composition books, small pens, hand sanitizer, starburst candy and a summer dress =) I wasn't expecting so much!

From my boyfriend David I got a nice red warm blankey that looks like a cloak. I have been wearing it almost everyday because it's so awesome. I also got a new Wacom Bamboo tablet! It's bigger than my old one and it has so much good stuff that I can use it for. Yay!

But even on top of all that, the best part was being with my family for these past few days in Beaumont for Hanukkah =) Weeee

I can't wait for David to come back from visiting his family. That will be the best giftie =D hehe. Just a few more days... hehe.

Hanukkah and things

This week on Tuesday 20th was the first day of Hanukkah. There are 8 days in total. I wanted to spend time with my family in Beaumont, so I decided to go over on Wednesday night. On Wednesday after I went to talk to my Kabbalah teacher, I came home and left for Beaumont with My cat Serenity. But before I went to the house, I went to hang out with Aiza for a little bit. I got her a Hanukkah giftie. Serenity got to explore Aiza's room and eat her dinner. I spent about 2 hours there and then left because I didn't want to get to Beaumont to late. I left Aiza's place at around 7pm. I got to Beaumont at around 8ish. Serenity got to explore around the house and finally relax at home after a long drive. The whole time I was there, I walked around the house with the new blankey Dave got for me. It almost looks like a cloak... which is perfect! I love it so much... and it keeps me warm.

My family likes to watch a lot of movies. So here is a list of all the movies I watched while in Beaumont. 1. The Help

2. Midnight to Paris

3. Straw Dog

4. Children of the Corn

5. Rio

It's nice to watch movies you haven't seen. Children of the Corn is an old movie, but I have never watched it because when I was younger I was just to scared. But that movie was ok. All the other movies on the list were also good. I really liked watching Rio. It was really cute and musical. The dancing in the movies was awesome.

I spent a lot of time with my family, but when I wasn't doing anything with them, I would spent time drawing storyboards. I did that until yesterday Saturday, because my laptop finally would not work anymore. The charger would not charge the laptop because the connection was all messed up. But yesterday was really fun. We had a Hanukkah party and lots of people showed up. I drank a whole bottle of White Zinfandel. I did get drunk... but after it passed, I didn't drink anymore and just enjoyed the night, laughing at peoples funny acts and talking to people. I also got to meet the only Jewish neighbors we have in our little neighborhood in Beaumont. There was dancing in the upstairs playroom... which was so hilarious. Mostly the adults... but it just made the night fun. I went to bed at around 11pm.

Today there were more stories to tell. Someone decided it would be fun to draw on people's faces. The ones who got drunk at least. There were many pictures. I'm glad I was in my room, I don't want anyone drawing on me!

So now I'm at home... relaxing...

That's all! Happy Hanukkah... day 6!

Overview

I'm going to make this a bit short. I want to write... but then again... I really don't. But anyways, last week week class at the Kabbalah class... it was about bringing children into this world. Something that's been on my mind for months... ahh. I wonder what my class will be today?

This past week I been working on storyboard for the SFK - part of the Kabbalah Centre. Working on these storyboards has gotten me to try to be more artistic... and wanting to do more. But I also need to do more in other areas of my life.

I have also been working on a Jolly Rancher commercial with Carlos and a few other people. I did a little bit of the compositing and color correction. We finish the project on Friday 12/16. All we needed to do is upload it to the contest website.

(12/17-12/19) On Saturday I went hiking with David up in Glendale. I never even been to this new place. But it took a lot of my energy. We started at around 2pm and ended at 4:30 pm. We were both exhausted from this hike. We had food after the hike.  Went to Panera Bread and then headed back to his place to shower, and then go over to Ikea. Dave saw a few things he wants to get. But he won't be getting them until he gets back from his trip back home. I hope finally Dave get his apartment nice and organized. That would be nice to see. On Sunday, David went and got a haircut. I stayed behind at his apartment. I slept a little longer... got up, read and watched tv. After he got back from his haircut, we went out to eat. We went to a place... I can't remember the name, but I had an omelet with salmon and cream cheese. It was so yummy. Two of my most favorite things... Salmon and cream cheese. After that we just hung out at his place. Later on the day he dropped me off so he could go do some comedy with Cliff D. I was just at home drawing and rearranging my pony displays in my room.

That's it... haha.

Weekend update 12/10-12/11

I decided to help Carlos in a commercial for Jolly Ranchers new candy. We had to get equipment to film and so we did on Friday. On Saturday we had a group get together to get the filming started. We meet up at noon in North Hollywood. It was the house of Carlos cousin and the house was really close to me. I ended up taking my bike to the house because I didn't have my car to use. But since it was so close... I don't think I would have used it anyway. The whole group consisted of, Carlos, Marcelo (actor), Eric, Chris and me. We still had another person, a friend of Carlos coming in later in the day. She would be the actress in the commercial. We started setting up the living room and moving all the furniture around to make space for what we were going to film.  We started we the outside scenes. We had everything ready and were about to start recording on the P2 cards until we hit the record did we find a problem with the camera. It didn't want to record and would say there was an error. I looked through the settings over and over again and could not find anything. To get around this problem, Carlos and Marcelo left to buy a DV tape to film. While they were gone, I still kept looking at the setting to see if there was something I could do to fix the problem. After a few minutes of doing this, I managed to changed some settings and finally made the camera to start recording. I called Carlos to tell him not to buy the tape anymore but he didn't answer his phone. Then I tried calling Marcelo but he also didn't pick up his phone. It was a few minutes afterward that Marcelo called back. I told them not to buy it but they ended up buying it in case we continued to have any other problems to the P2 cards. It didn't take too long to film our scenes outside of the house so we quickly moved in to film the shots inside of the house. These shots took a bit longer because we had to fix the lights and make sure everything was good. At about 3:30 pm Carlos ordered pizza for everyone. We kept working on filming until the pizza came so then we took a break. We took a nice long break and just talked and planned for what we were going to do next. At around 5pm we had Carlos friend finally get there. We were still in the process of getting done with all the scenes without her, but we were near. We didn't finish until about 7pm. David called me to see if we were still going to go to Ariel's and Joe's party. He was in orange county... a little far... but he managed to get to me within an hour. He came and got me and we went over to the party. We had some food, apple cider and watched xmas movies. I also got a few gifts from Ariel... which I wasn't expecting at all. After that we just came over to Dave's place to sleep.

On Sunday, Dave had to go into work for a few hours to work on something. He dropped me home and he would get me later to go eat. When he did finish at work, he got me and we went out to eat pupusas. After that we went to his place and just relaxed. We watched tv and I eventually fell asleep while watching fox 11 Sunday night shows.  I did ended up waking up because Carlos called me asking about the footage from Saturday. We eventually went to sleep at about 11pm but I couldn't fall asleep. I stayed awake until about 1am. I don't remember falling sleep... but glad I did.

Howl at the Moon and the weekend 12/2-12/4

Last Friday (12/2/11) I hosted a party at Howl at the moon because I had won a party in October so finally it was time to use my party to have friends come and get together. It was a last minute notice because the person who I sent the info about what date I was going to host this party never contacted me. So this past week on Tuesday I was notified about the reminder for my party on Friday December 2nd. I scrambled trying to get the work out to some of my friends. 10 people came out and that includes me. I'm actually happy I was able to get some of my friends out. I was expecting 2-3 people. Glad that it turned out well and it was all fun too. All who came out were, Greg, Marcelo, Renee, Ryan, Bailee, Dana, Cliff, David M. and of course my boy Dave and me. Of course I had to be there... haha. Lots of talking, picture taking, drinking and fun music. It all started at 6pm and we didn't leave until 11:45pm. But this time all but Greg and Dana had left. After we got out of Howl at the Moon, we all went to eat at in-n-out burgers. We hung around at the in-n-out burgers until about 1am. Then Dave and I went to his place to sleep.

12/3/11. The next day we ended up sleeping for many hours. We both thought it would be around 8 or 9am. It turned out to be 11am. We hung out at Dave's place for a bit until we had to go to my place so I could get dressed for his work holiday party at the Luxe Hotel Sunset at 6pm. When we get to my place, I try to get ready quickly... but because what I had planned on wearing wasn't fit for the occasion... I had decide on something else to wear for the night it took a little bit longer. But finally I was ready... and we were off. There was a bit of traffic on our way to the hotel that David thought we would get there late and won't have time for cocktails and talking to people. The traffic kept moving quickly and we got to the hotel on time. There was some food being passed around by the people who work at the hotel. My favorite was the little salmon cone. It was so yummy. I also liked the chicken pizza.  

Finally it was time to get dinner out. We sat for a little and waited for the food to come out. 1st was the salad, then dinner food, which was steak, fish, veggies, sweat potato and finally desert which was just a lot of yummy things. Haha. At the end of the whole meal I got coffee. After that there was music, dancing and casino games where people could play. Dave went and played some game... I don't even know what the hell it's called. That's how much I know about casino games. All I know is, there were cards, game chips... and PEOPLE. Haha. It was fun watching... but I still had NO IDEA what the heck was going on. We left at around midnight. We got home to Dave's place and went to sleep.

12/4/11 - We ended up waking up late... again! Haha. I'm tired of typing... so I'll make this last bit as short as possible. We went out and got breakfast. Went home to relax. Dave played Baulder's Gate for a little bit. We went out for a late night hike at around 4pm. After hike, more relaxing for me since Dave had to write some work stuff. We needed dinner so we ordered Chinese food and watched Neverland on Syfy. Then after a little bit... Dave packed stuff for his work trip. After that, we went to sleepy sleep.

To be continued... haha.

Wallenda Screening + Winds

Last week on Wednesday I went to the Wallenda screening Gnomon In Hollywood.  It was pretty awesome to finally see it up and complete. I went with David so he could see what the heck I was working in on this whole time at the internship. After the film, there was a party over at The Cat & Fiddle. It had been a really windy day it was turning out to be also for the night part. David and I met up with Marcelo, David M. and some other people I know from school. We had a couple of drinks and talked a bit. At about 10pm or so we left and headed over to Dave's place for the night. It was a crazy ride home with all the wind. The trees moved wildly and leaves went all over the place. We neared Dave's place in Glendale and going down a Brand street (I think) we thought it just started to rain because there was a tons of water flying at us. But it turned out it was water from the sprinklers about two blocks away from us. Two blocks?? Really? this was really strong wind. We got to Dave's place, (finally) but Dave wanted to go out and explore this scene. So we did and I brought along my camera to film our adventure. Here is a video if you wish to watch our adventure. 11/30/11.

My brother and wife in town - Week 3

11/21/11 - A day for relaxing... I guess. But I did have a job interview. I think it went well. The supervisor was nice. So... I just have to wait and see if they call me. I went over to my aunts work place. Hung out there for a little bit. Had lunch and then went home. I also went to my Kabbalah class at night... I think that's about it.

11/22/11 - I don't remember. Haha.

11/23/11 - Went out to the mall to get my boots I been wanting to buy. I did pay a deposit. So in case I didn't like them, or some other problem... I can get a full refund. When I got to the store, I tried on the boots and they were a perfect fit! I was so happy. I went home and Jasmine saw my boots and started to think maybe she wants a pair. At 12pm  we left so we could get lunch with my aunt and uncle. We had to take Trinity with us because after lunch, my aunt and uncle were going to take my cousin with them. I looked in the garage for my cat carrier... and blue plastic one... and I found it. I cleaned it up and made it comfy for the Trinity. My cousin Al put her in the cat carrier and we were set to go. On the way over to the restaurant, (a pupuseria) Trinity kept crying and whining. But once we got to the restaurant we waited 10-15 for my aunt and uncle to arrive. Once they arrived they asked the people in the restaurant if we could bring trinity inside while we eat. They said it's all good, she can come it. She sat in the cat carrier next to my cousin. I had plantanos, 2 cheese pupusas and a horchata. It was good to spend time with my family. After we had lunch, my cousin and I waited outside until my aunt and uncle paid for the meal. We were checking on Trinity to see how she was doing and then noticed she had pee in the cat carrier. My cousin said "cochina," which translates to dirty girl, but in this case, dirty cat girl. Haha. We both cleaned out the mess. Finally it was time to depart and Trinity and my cousin left with my aunt and uncle. I asked my brother if he could take me to Blick art store so I could get some art supplies. I needed more turpenoid for the oils. This is my favorite place to get supplies from. I always go to many different stores but I usually don't buy from them. I just go check out the prices. When it's time to buy, it's off to Blick's. The location we ended going to was the one in Los Angeles down Beverly Blvd. It's near the Beverly Center. I remember the days when it used to be called "The Art Store." My brother, Jasmine and I looked around for 15 minutes just seeing what they had. I got my odorless turpenoid, a glass container and a painting knife. I got all those 3 items for 12 dollars with my 40% off coupon and 10% off preferred customer card. My brother wanted to go home, but Jasmine made his got to the Glendale Galleria to check out the boots she might want to get. We were at the Galleria and Jasmine in the end didn't get the boots. We just walked around looking at the stores. I did end up getting some red tights I been wanting to get for a while now.  After that we just went home. Tomorrow my brother, wife and their dogs are going back home to Pennsylvania. I went out to watch David's comedy show. It's the night before Thanksgiving and we both thought no one would show up. We were wrong. It filled up with people who wanted to see comedy! It was a great show! =)

11/24/11 - It's Thanksgiving, Turkey day! I dropped my brother, wife and dogs off at the airport at about 10 am. I said bye to them, for the time being. They will be back in California in about 6 months. So yay! After that, I came home and got ready so David could come get me so we could get our Turkey meal and go to Nicole's place and dine. We had a nice meal and hung out at Nicole's place for a bit. After we left... we were actually hungry. We had a small afternoon meal so we ended up going to some place in Sherman Oaks to get food. I don't remember exactly what it was, but we shared the entree plate and got an appetizer. The food was really yummy and perfect. 

11/25/11 -  Dave has a show tonight at a Sci-fi convention. He got in for free since he was participating. I didn't go because Dave had a feeling it was going to be horrible. It ended up being horrible. Glad I didn't go and made him waste money on a lame convention. Haha.

11/26/11 - 11/27/11 - I don't remember what the heck we did this weekend... haha.