Frozen Dream

I forgot to tell David about my dream on Monday morning. It was a weird dream. I was trying to start a business selling frozen yogurt. The location was in Beverly Hills area. It was early in the morning and I already had a friend working and getting things started. It was around 6am and it was still dark out. I'm getting all the yogurt ready when I see people walking outside the store. All the employees and myself get curious and follow them. We walk down to another store and go in. There is a room and lots of people are sitting down waiting for something to start. We sit down too, not knowing what is going on. Shortly after  we are there I realized they were vampires. The only reason they haven't realized that my employees and I are living is because we have been preparing the cold yogurt for the day. I immediately signals the other that we should get out. But by this time it was too late. We get taken away from the room. That's all I remember from the dream. Now I want some frozen yogurt!

Yeah... that's it for this post.

-Glad

3 Day Update

Last time I wrote on my blog was Thursday. I can't remember what else I did that day. I guess it wasn't that important!

On Friday I had to take my Dad to the DMV to re-register his car to his name. I had to wake up at 7am. All I wanted was to sleep in a little bit. I came back home and I went on with my typical morning. Go online, check email, check my RSS reader, facebook and other miscellaneous things. I totally forgot what time it was, I felt I had been awake forever, but Dave messages me. In my head I thought he would already be at work, but then I look at the time and notice it's only 9:37am. I was also thinking he should be leaving for work, but I had forgotten he said he was going to get a haircut. Yay, for less hair, at least on him. I'm trying to grow my hair. It will take a while for that. From Dave's calculations, he said it would take 3 years. We'll see how long my hair will be at the end of this year.

So today I also decided to hang out with Clifford. I went over to his place at 1pm. I texted him when I got there. I waited a minute or two but then decided I should call him. He came out and opened his gate and I went inside his house. We were watching some funny show at his place when he got a text telling him, that I was here. I sent this message 30 minutes earlier and he just getting it now? If I didn't call his phone when I did, I would have bee waiting for a little bit. Good thing I decided I should just called him instead of waiting for him to get a text. After we finished watching his show, we put on a movie. We watched "The Boy in Stripped Pajamas." I really like this movie, it has a good story, amazing shots and the relationship between the boy characters is cute. What I really like about this movie, is the director didn't even create storyboards for the film. He filmed everything in order to get it just right. That's is an amazing feet. To be able to do that with no visual on paper is incredible. After the movie Cliff was hungry. Or at least he wanted to get something. So we left and went to Starbucks. I had my ipod with me and I forced him to listen to My Little Pony music. Haha. It was the Gorillas music track mixed with pony music. It's very addicting... so I wanted to share it with him. His expression to the music was priceless. I kept laughing at his reactions. That went for 20 minutes. Not all at once. When we got to Starbucks, I saw there was a frozen yogurt place right next to it. So I decided I would get some of that instead. I got the flavor, Cherry Amaretto. It was so delicious. I wish I had more! After Cliff got his Starbucks, he still wanted food. So we went to In-n-Out. He got a burger and I just enjoyed my frozen healthy yogurt. Haha. After he finished eating his burger we went and looked around the Michael's that was in the plaza. We hung out for a bit looking at stuff. Cliff wondered what other places we could go look at, so I suggested the Aaron Brothers in Burbank. So we decide to go there only after he went home and got his sweater. It was starting to get cold. I waited for him to get his stuff. While I waited I ran to my car and got my jacket in case it got colder. 

We go to Aaron Brothers in Burbank and spend some time looking at more art things. Cliff ended up getting a few things, drawing pads, and a few thousand pencils! He did get a few different kinds of pencils... but not thousands. Haha. We were starting to get hungry so after Cliff finished his little art shopping we went to get food. At this time I was starting to count just how many hours Clifford and I have been hanging out. At this point it was 5-6 hours. But since we needed food, we both got Japanese food. After we finished eating, I felt my phone vibrating. I checked my bag, picked up my celly and saw that it was David calling me. By the time I got my phone it was already a missed call. So I called him back. He wanted to know where I was and if I wanted him to come get me. Well I was hanging with Cliff so I couldn't just leave. So I told him that and he just said to call him later when I get home. After that, we decided to keep looking at other stores. So went to Best Buy. We looked around the stores to see if there was anything interesting. We left and started to leave the parking lot, but then Cliff decided he wanted to go to another store, Sports Authority. He wanted to look at bicycles. I saw some awesome bicycling gloves which I want to buy in the future, when I have money. So afterward we finally left and took the 5 N to go up to his place. We noticed the that one of the exits he usually gets off at was closed due to construction, so we had to get of the next exit. We ended up getting lost because we didn't know the area. We went around in circles but eventually found our way back to Panorama City. I relaxed for a bit at Cliffs place. I felt after 10pm. When I got home I called Dave and left him a message telling him I was home. He then later came over and picked me up. I left and I stayed over at his place.

Ahh... so many details. I'm tired or typing. But there is still more to tell! So... I will keep going. 

Yesterday Saturday, I got up at 7am to watch the new episode of My Little Pony. I watched most of it. I kept dozing off for some minutes. But did watch the ending. Haha. I will have to re-watch the episode to see what I missed. Afterwards, I ended up just falling asleep in Dave's couch. I was so comfy, I didn't want to move from the warm spot. I woke up later on and it was now 9am. I went back to the bedroom and Dave was already awake. My head was hurting a little bit, so I ended up falling asleep again for another hour and a half. We both woke up and finally got ready and left to go to the Chinatown New Year. We drove towards the festival as fast as we could. We were both hungry and hadn't eaten a thing! We parked in downtown and walked to Chinatown. There was so much traffic in downtown because of road closures. We got a good parking lot where the cost was only $5 dollars. Cheapest parking price ever! haha We walked a good distance and it was nice to do that. We go have some fun and at the same time we walked and got some exercise. There were so many people there. We got stuck in the crowd, but when we could we went around to avoid them. We wanted to eat, and were looking for the food trucks but we ended up on the opposite side of the street. So we had to cross while the parade was at a stop. We managed to cross while, The Batman Car, The Mystery Machine were sitting around and people were taking pictures of them. We finally got to the food trucks and got food. Dave got some crepes and I got an sandwich. The name of the sandwich was The Holy Aioli. It was so yummy. The flavors were not overpowering. I could taste all the yummy goodness. I couldn't finish the sandwich to I'm glad I had a bag to take the leftover with me. There was a truck with shaved ice... so we both decided to get one. I haven't had one in a while. Last time I did it was in 2009. It was so good. Thinking about it right now, makes me want more. I need to find a place or something. But anyways, after that we spent some time looking around at stores. We started heading back to the car at around 4ish. I had tickets to go see a show at Flappers. I invited a few people, but only Marcelo, Carlos and his girlfriend Carol came. I was glad I was able to have some people come and enjoy a comedy show. So we went to the show and the show was pretty good. But the service turned out horrible. The server who was supposed to be in that night called of, so Flappers had someone else who had no idea what he was doing working the night. I needed food because the server forgot to bring me my food. So we ended up going to Johnny Rockets and I got Chili Cheese Fries. Carlos and his gf left because she needed to get up early to go to work. Marcelo stayed and had some food with me. We ate and talked for a bit. Afterwards we both went our ways. Marcelo was on his way to a party. Dave and I went to his place to relax. We watched an old SNL show. Afterwards we went to sleep.

We woke up early today. I wanted to be home around 9:15am. I had a class to get to. I went to the class... and then came back home. I ate my leftovers and afterwards I took a short nap. Not much today... but I been at home and just letting Dave do his things. Gonna go over to his place later...

That's it for today...

-Glad

So Far This Week...

On Monday I had to wake up early to go to the clinic to get my TB test done. Also making sure my background check went though for the tutoring job I applied for. I stayed over at Dave's place the night before. I just had to get up and leave by 8am and get home in 10-20 minutes to change and go do my errands. Once I completed my tasks, I went home. I started checking my email and saw that there was an email from the Sanrio store I had applied for work about two weeks ago. The manager wanted me to come in for an interview that same day. Glad I had free time that day to be able to go to it. I went to the interview and the Manager gave me all the details of the job. He said he would let me know by the end of next week, if anything. After the interview I went of to my Kabbalah class. 

It's funny and hard trying to remember the things I have done this week. I can't even remember what I did on Tuesday. Oh well, onto yesterday Wednesday. I went back to the clinic and got my TB test, it came back negative. I fax the results to the tutoring company and now I'm just waiting for the next step. I hung out with Clifford for a bit. We had lunch, talked, went to Best Buy, and went to Fry's electronics. Cliff wanted to buy a 24 inch monitor to his computer. We first went to Best Buy but they didn't have any 24 inch monitors. They only had 23, and 27 inch monitor. So I suggested we go to Fry's and so we did. As we went in we saw they were hiring so we both filled out job applications. We go look for his 24 inch monitor and there it was! It was at a good low price so he ended up buying it. I'm glad he did because the screen he has at home is so small... it's was annoying having to watch an online show on it. After that we went back to his place because we were driving around in his car. Afterwards I went home and got ready for Dave's show at Flappers. It was a good show that night. Joe and Ariel showed up to watch the show. The audience was kinda eh. They didn't want to laugh at the funnies! But it was still a fun night. I stayed over at Dave's place. 

We got up early today because Dave needed to get to work and finish things and I wanted to go to a job fair. And I did go to the job fair and talked to the person doing the interviews. I think it went well. There were a lot of people applying, so it will be a process. Now I just wait to see what happens next.

The day is young... there is still more to do. So I will leave it at that.

-Glad

History, Comedy and Kabbalah!

Yesterday Saturday,  I woke up to watch My Little Pony Friendship is Magic at 7am on the HUB. I finally get to watch it on TV since the new season started at the begging of this year. I put my alarm at at 6:55am so I wouldn't have to wait so long for it to start. I was sitting for one minute on the couch and David comes out and cuddles next to me and watches my show. Haha.

David and I also went to the Natural History Museum. I really wanted to go see the dinosaurs at the Dinosaur Hall, so finally we did. So yay! It was really awesome seeing a lot of the dinosaur boneys. We also saw the exhibit of the "Age of Mammals" and "Gems and Minerals" exhibit. Lots of pretty stuff and I also took some pictures.

After we went to Joe's Comedy show at The Comedy Store. We were running a bit late, and we needed food. We went to Fat Burger and got a quick burger to take and eat once we have parked near The Comedy Store. But Joe texted back saying the main guy in charge wasn't even there... so It would probably start later and it did. It started until 6pm. The show time was 5pm. Grrr at people for being disorganized and not responsible. Do not put a show that is on early if you cannot be there on the time it's supposed to start. But anyways, we ate our burger and there was a homeless person near by. I felt weird eating in front of the guy, so I was trying to hide my food away from him. Dave kinda felt bad about eating in front of him, he ended up giving him some money. After that we went to the entrance of the place and waited in line for like maybe 15 minutes I think. It felt longer... but I'm not sure. We saw Ariel outside waiting in line but then she went off to say bye to someone who wasn't really old enough to be in a comedy club that serves alcohol. After a bit of waiting, Ariel joined us, and we finally went in to wait in another line to pay and finally go in. We had to get two items to drink, it's a minimum requirement. My first one was a frozen mocha and the second one was a virgin piña colada. Dave also ordered some cookies... and when we got them it was only two... O_O I was shocked. For five dollars... only two? Jezz. Anyways, Joe was on until 7pm. It turned out perfect because a parking meter expired at 7:16pm. We got to Dave's car with two minutes remaining.

I had a Kabbalah meeting with people that night, so it still turned out well that we left at the time we had to. It didn't start until 8pm, but we went towards the hotel area and waited at the mall for a little bit until my Kabbalah thingy started. Dave dropped me off and went off to a coffee place to work on work stuff. I was actually surprised at myself that I talked to people at the event. I guess it was easier because we had something in common. After a lecture and talking to people I called Dave at about 9:45pm to come and get me. We went to his place and then we just relaxed and went to sleep late. I think we fell asleep quickly.

That's it for now.

-Glad

What's in a name?

I started thinking about my nicknames this morning. Why? Because I got call from Carlos and he just wanted to see what I have been up to this past few days. Towards the end of our conversation he called me "Chief." He's the only person who calls me that and I think it's funny. Am I leader? eh, not really... he probably seems me as one. Who knows!

That brought me back to when I first decided that I wanted to use the nick "Glad" more often. It was during my AP Psychology class. The instructor wanted to know if there was a nickname that you prefer to be called by. Only a few friends at this point would call me "Glad," but I figured, why not. "Glad" is my favorite one out of all the other ones.

I remember back in middle school one specific person would call me "Gladiator." It's a rather long nickname... so I never really liked it. But whenever someone says the word, "Gladiator," now, or I hear it somewhere on TV, or read it,  I can't help to think that it's referring to me. I didn't like it then, but now I like it.

Some of the other nicknames people call me by are Gigi, Glady or Gladie (which ever, same way to say it) and Gladisky. Cliff's the only one who calls me Gladisky. I don't know why, but he wanted to give me some Russian type name I guess because that's how it sounds like.

Yeah... that's all.

-Glad

No Sicky Icky

My cat interview went well, I think. That's what I was really thinking... cat interview! But yeah, it went fine... so we'll just see what happens. I still got tons of other places that could call me for an interview. I went to staples afterwards and got a few things I needed. I also went out on a bike ride. I went out for a long ride without stopping much... I felt tired but I didn't want to stop. 

I'm also starting not to feel very well. My head feels like it wants to hurt... and I'm more sniffly than usual. I'm usually snifflly because of all the cat hair... haha. Ahh I hope I don't get sick and I just hope it's just for today that I feel like this.

I have to take my car to get service tomorrow in the morning. Then later at night I'm going to be volunteering at the Kabbalah Centre. I need to be feeling better by then. But for now, I'm going to go lay down... it's probably not a good idea to be on here anyways.

-Glad

After Sunday comes Monday!

Last night after I left Dave's place, I came home to see a possum on top of the front gate of my house. It didn't want to move and just stayed on top of the gate while I opened and closed it. Here is a pictute:

I woke up with a headache this morning. I didn't have enough water yesterday, so I can see why I got a headache. It didn't go away until about the afternoon time. It hasn't completely gone away... I can slightly feel it lingering around.

I decided to take a break today from all this job searching and finally clean my room. This whole past week I was to busy and to stressed to do anything about it. But on top of that, I was just to tired to even clean. So finally today I was able to do it and also fix and organize my other clothing outside of my closet, nice and neatly. I am happy with how things look now. 

I will go to sleep soon. I have a job interview tomorrow at 10am. We'll see how that goes. Even if it doesn't work out, I believe it will give me more experience with how to present and talk during a job interview.

Okay, that is all... Glad out!

-Glad

Friday Night

I finally got to hang out with Ariel. I'm definitely planning to do that more often. Ariel and I went to the Northridge mall and looked at clothing stores. It's funny how similar our taste in clothing is. Also how we thing about clothes and what we do with them. Sher got a few things at the Victoria's Secret store with her gift card. Shortly after that, I decided it be better if we head back to her place and get ready to go meet up with people at citywalk for dinner. We left about the same time and arrived at the same time in two different vehicles. I had mine and she had hers. I parked my car else where and had Ariel and Joe come get me and go to citywalk. We met up with Billy, and Diana. People I have previously met. They are really fun and outgoing people, very easy to talk to. I also met two other people, Melissa and Joe. They were also cool people and had good conversations with them. Everyone who was there was with their boyfriends... except for me. I felt left out. We went to eat at Johnny Rockets... I was a bit worried to go there... but I wanted to see if I can order my chili cheese fries the way I like it, with natural shredded cheese. I was happy when I was able to order it the way I like it. I also wanted to order a chocolate shake but didn't want to drink all those calories that come with it. I usually share a shake with David, but he wasn't there... so I was already deciding no. But when I said that I usually share it with Dave, Ariel said she wouldn't mind sharing one with me. So she ordered the shake and we shared it. It was really fun hanging out with them. Finally it was time to go. Ariel and Joe were planning to go see her grandma for her bday. So they dropped me off at my car near the park by universal citywalk. I went home and relaxed and worked on a few things I needed to do.

Cliff came by so we could go back to citywalk and hang out at Howl at the Moon. He had won a party but mostly no one showed up. It was only 3 of us in total. I met one of his co-worker, Damaris. She was a really cool person. She wanted to enter to win a party, so she texted the info to the number on the paper they gave us on our way in and she won a party. I thought that was so cool! I thought it be funny if I tried to win a party again... and BAM, I won too! Now this I thought it was hilarious. Cliff ended up texting to the number too, and to my surprise he won too. Now this was hilarious. He won again even though he was having a party? haha. At least we got cheap drinks! After being at Howl at the Moon, Damaris needed food, she had a bit too much alcohol. We went to Saddle Ranch to get some food. I only had an order of fries. I was still full from dinner. This whole time I was there, I was wishing Dave to be there. It came to the point where I got too emotional and I started to cry. Damaris, a person I barely knew and just met talked to me and comforted me. She's definitely a good person for even caring about someone she doesn't know. I was glad to have meet her. I tried to have fun the rest of the night but my mind was mostly elsewhere. We finally left citywalk at around 2am. I came home and just fell asleep next to Serenity.

Today is another day. I don't know what is going to happen beyond this point. All I can say is... that I been trying so hard this past week... but I don't know if it's going to matter anymore.

-Glad

Another Friday

This is the 5th blog I have written in a row. My blog's have been short... but it still counts. Last night I fell asleep with Serenity next to me. She spent two hours with me sleeping... but I ended up waking up and then realized she was still there. It was about 3am in the morning when I fell asleep. When I awoke it was already 5am and that's when she finally decided to leave and go her own little way. She loves being near me. Right now she's laying on my lap, purring and all happy. I'm glad she loves me so much.

I'm so sleepy right now... but I working on filling out pages and pages of information. I also got in the mail my netflix the other day, but I haven't had much time to watch my DVD. I have only watch 1 episode on the DVD. I also got a card I ordered online more than a week ago for David. I was planning to give it to him on February 12th... but right now I don't know anymore. It makes me sad just looking at the card package.

Later today I will be hanging out with Ariel. We'll probably get a small lunch and then dinner with Joe and two other of his friends. It should be fun... after such a hectic week! Then later at night I will be heading out to Howl at the Moon with Clifford. He actually won a party... a party! Girls were the only ones who appeared to win, but he won. So it's not just a girl thing. It starts at 10pm. So after I have dinner with Ariel and Joe, I should still have time to go to Howl at the Moon. I asked Cliff to pick me up. I been driving so much this week. I filled up my gas tank to be able to go places this week. I left my gas tank with probably half a gallon today. Ahhh my feet hurt as well...

Tomorrow will be another long day. Half will not be so fun and the other half will be fun. Gahh... I need a better break... 

-Glad

Exhausted

I feel like I have been working non-stop for 4 days straight. I have been busy going all over the place and staying up late. I just want to quit... but I can't lose hope. I have to keep going.

I'm starting to feel ill because of my lack of sleep or is it too much stress? I have been eating a little more... so I have some energy.

I think it's time to sleep... today will be another long day.

-Glad

Cuddly

Luckily Serenity doesn't do what's on the image above. She usually just lays on the cat perch that's by the window. She has been cuddling with me every night ever since Saturday. It's nice to be able to hug her as I fall asleep. I'm pretty sure she can sense how I'm feeling and for that I'm glad I have her.

But I still miss my Dave... and I want many cuddles and kisses.

-Glad

Friends

I keep getting lost in my thoughts. Thinking of what I should do or what's going to happen. All of it gets me emotional. I'm alone with my thoughts... and it's annoying. No one else is feeling what I'm feeling...

At this time I don't want to be alone, so I'm trying to hang out with friends to talk and do things. By doing this I force myself to not think about what is really going on in my life. I haven't been eating as much as I usually do, but being with my friends has actually forced me to eat at least something.

I hung out with Clifford on Sunday. He's one of my best friends. I went over to his house because I needed to have company and to my surprised he was sick. Luckily I'm not feeling ill now, so I didn't catch anything. But anyways, I talked to him about things... and at least I had someone to talk to, to give me some advice or things I should think about. But just having the company was good enough. His mom made dinner and I hadn't eaten anything that day, so I ate the chicken and rice. We started to watch V for Vendetta, but towards the middle of the movie, Cliff decided that he wanted to make a bond fire in his backyard. We had enough wood to make it last for approximately 2 hours. It was nice to sit there, talk and just keep warm with the fire. His dog Moon also joined us which made it fun. I was at Cliff's house until midnight. I didn't want to go home, but I wanted to sleep in my warm bed. So I went home and just cuddled with my cat Serenity. 

Here is a vid of Sunday.

Monday I went to hang out with Renee and Bailey. We talked for a while and then had lunch. I hadn't eaten again up until 2pm when I ate with them two. After lunch I left. I went to toymandala to see if my friend Dustin was working and he was. So I hung out for about 45 mins at the store. I didn't get home until around 6pm. I relaxed a bit at home doing some paperwork... and at 7pm I left to the Kabbalah Centre. I filled up my cars gas tank... tomorrow will require a lot of driving back and forth. At least I will be with my friend Carlos for a bit of the back and forth driving session. 

That's it for now...

-Glad

Lost

I woke up today... still in an okay state. Today I had planned to go biking before I did anything else. I had yogurt before I left and off I went. I had only planned to bike for 30 minutes. But for some reason I calculated my timing or minutes wrong and I ended up biking for almost an hour. I felt good being out there. Not a thing could bring me down. That's what I thought... but it's not what happened when I got home and after I took a nice shower. I really was not prepared... 

I don't know anymore. I'm confused. I'm worried and I can't say anything about it. Even if I have anything to say... it never matters. My opinions or thoughts don't count at all. 

-Glad

Busy Friday

I have been working on a little test for a company who does youtube vids. I finally sent it off to them so they can review my shot. It was really fun working on this little project.  I hope I hear back from them soon with good news... we shall see. Today when I woke I thought I heard my dad come inside the house, I heard noise in the living room, so I thought it was him. But to my surprise it was my cousin! Haha. I knew he was going to show up today, but not so early! Shortly after that,  I went out for a short bike ride. I also went out to put my netflix in the mailbox. Can't wait to get the next DVD in the mail. 

These past few days I have been trying to make more room in my room. Getting rid of stuff... trying to move things around, etc. So I started with my closet... looking for clothes I don't wear often, putting hooks on the side of my closet for all my bags. The hooks started to make my closet more neat. But what I need is a new dresser which I went and got today from Ikea. I don't have much space in my room for a dresser but I measured my closet and found a dresser that would fit perfect in my closet. I went my my mom and cousin to Ikea. He helped carry boxes to the cart and to the car. I was so glad the boxes we got where a small size, so they fit inside my car perfectly. I got a 3 drawer dresser, in black brown color, I think. Haha. I also got two Laiva bookcases, $25 dollars each. These bookcases will go in my room in Beaumont where I will be able to place books or other stuff. I was also able to enjoy a frozen yogurt from Ikea for a dollar. I have been wanting to get one for the past 5 times I been there. So finally it was time, and it was yummy! We got home and I started to put the dresser together. It was very similar to the one David got about a week ago from Ikea and I also helped him put it together.  So when I got everything out from the cardboard box I knew I would be able to finish in a short amount of time. It was pretty simple to get to the final product. I did notice that the dresser was a bit smaller than the plastic drawers I had in my closet. So I decided to get rid of clothing that I don't use anymore. But some where clothing that I just didn't want to get rid off... but I made myself get rid of it. I just have to much clothing... sometimes I don't know what to do with them. In the end I think I got rid of about 20 articles of clothing. I'm still planning to through the other clothing that's not in my closet... and see what else I get rid of. Yeah.... too much ropa (clothing.) 

Aside from that, I have been watching the all day marathon of Merlin. The new season starts tonight at 10pm. I have already seen the new season online in some website... hehe. I got ahead of a lot of people. I couldn't help myself. The series is just so good... and I can't wait for the 5th season. I think this is one of the few show that I have followed and wait anxiously for a new season. But now I can't wait to watch the whole 4th season on Syfy.

Okay... I'm resting from so much hard work in fixing my room... but I still don't want to stop. I want to keep going... but... I am tired. Haha. Also, I'm waiting for Dave to call me to see what is up! Waiting, waiting... it seems it's what I do best. Tomorrow is also Renee's little party thing at Howl at the Moon. I'm going to go... and have some fun with friends! Yay!

Okay... that's all.

-Glad

Biking... again?

I haven't been biking for about 2-3 months, I think. Too much going on in my head to make me care about going out to exercise. Mostly because I haven't been in the mood, or just plain depressed about life. Most parts of my life are going well, but other parts are just blah.

But finally today I went out for a short bike ride, for a start. It was about 30 mins I would say. I really didn't want to go. I was in no mood to even want to get out of bed but I forced myself to get up. I kept going back and forth about going out biking. It just feels like a waste of time. Even if I do this, it's not going to get me faster to where I want to be in life.

This is how it went down. I got ready, "I don't want to go." I ate a short breakfast, "I don't want to go." I got all my stuff and went out to get my bike, "I don't want to go." I filled up my water bottle, "I don't want to go." I took my bike out of the garage, "I don't want to go." I went back into the house to get my knee brace because I forgot to put it on, "I could just sit here and not go." Left the house and went to the backyard to get my bike, "Blaah, blaah." Got my bike, put on my helmet and gloves, "This is annoying. I hate this." Got on my bike and sat on it for 20 seconds until I finally went riding. I realize my opponent (myself) was beating on me the whole time and trying to make me not to go. I"m glad I didn't listen and just went with what I know I should be doing.

It's hard trying to do the right things for yourself.  Most of the time you should just go with what your instincts tell you to do and just do it. But right now I'm going to start off slow. Going out biking for 30 mins... until I'm back to an hour plus like I used to. Slowly get my self into the rhythm I was in. I don't want to just jump in immediately... I feel that would not be a good thing for myself. I think I need to take my time, so I can on my own feel the want for it. Right now I still don't feel it, but when I was out there riding, I felt it.

-Glad

Something I want to complain about...

I'm sick and tired of seeing on Facebook people saying they are starting a cleanse for weight loss, or going on a diet. What is up with that? There is no cleanse or dieting of any kind. If you want to lose weight, then eat right. Eat small portions of food. Eat healthy (fruits, veggies, etc.) stuff of course. Snack throughout the day. You also exercise... and you don't even have to do it everyday... I say at least 4 times a week is good enough for about an hour. If you go out, you don't have to eat all of the food that is brought to you, you can take leftovers home and eat it at a later time. If you feel guilty about eating something or eating so much... then STOP.  You should never feel guilty about what you eat, unless you are eating wrong. It's also not a bad thing to indulge yourself in foods you love once in a while, but you don't do it every single day. Take responsibility for what you do.

I have to say, people who think they have to do a cleanse or diet is dumb. There is no cleanse or dieting of any sort. All you are really doing is changing the way you eat. It's all in the mind. You change your habits to good habits and then you will be on your way to loosing weight. You just have to manage what you eat. Then it all becomes normal and you keep at it. You don't stop once you get to where you want to be, you continue to maintain it.

THAT IS ALL!!!

Glad out.

Start of the Gregorian New Year 2012

It's a new year... new things I suppose. I also wanted to say that I read 24 books last year. Let's see if I can break my record this year! What I also like about starting a new year, is placing new calendars on my wall. For 2011 I had a tiger calendar. My favorite wild cat. This year I put a My Little Pony calendar. Hehe.

I spent new years eve with David at Flappers. For me to be doing anything on New Years... is like a miracle. I can't think of a time when I have done something. So it was nice actually being somewhere. Being at Flappers was okay, but I was still happy because I was with my boy for the first time to celebrate new years. This was the first time... at least I will be able to have memories for this new years. Hopefully it's not the last.

David and I watched "The Muppets" yesterday. I came up with the idea of walking to the Americana in Glendale. It wasn't too far. It took us about 20-25 minutes. It felt good walking there. But aside from that, the movie was awesome. David has been wanting to watch it, but in fact I wasn't. Even though I felt that way, inside I was still curious to watch the movie because I did grow up watching the Muppets. So glad I did watch the movie. YAY! After the movie we went to Granville Cafe and had dinner. After that we walked back t his apartment where I spent the night again. Hmmm, now that I think about it... I think it was the 5th night in a row... haha.

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Here wishing that all goes well this year.